Spencer's Letters to his Mother

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

June 13, 2006

Dear Mom,

Today I started that big adventure I told you about...my first day the FBI academy. I am nervous, and afraid, but I always keep in mind the things you have taught me-face your fears-for they are less frightening when faced head on. I am smart enough to deal with this, and finally, that with manners, a positive attitude, and a mother's love, you make it as far in life as you wish to.

I will write more this evening; our Academy instructor just entered the room-his name badge reads "Gideon".

Love Always,

Spencer.

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

Mom-
It is now evening, and we have been excused to our dormatories for the night. Agent Gideon, the man I mentioned this morning, says that I have potential. I have also met another young man, Ethan James, and he is like me-very young, very smart, and a formidable oppeneant. But don't worry, Mama, your son will win the fight-I always do.

I am sleepy, Mom, so this will be a short message tonight. I hope you are well, and know that I miss you terribly. I will visit when I am able; Academy training is 16 weeks.

All My Love,

Spencey

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

(Author's note: fast forward)

May 22nd, 2011
Mom,
I have some news. I know you have always told me that when it comes to girls-women-it's best to choose very carefully, and always opt on the side of love, and not mere attraction.
Now I am faced with a delimma-there are two women in my life, two women that I think I could see a future with. One of them is a fellow teammate, which comes with it's own can of worms, and another is a consultant. The first girl is called Signe; I don't know if you remember her, but I wrote to you about her case a few years ago. The other is Dr. Charlotte Moore. She's a little younger, but she's so pretty. Signe is my age, but a little broken. I am not sure that I am the right man to fix her broken heart. She says that she loves me, and that she has for some time, but mama, I'm scared.

Anyway, on to my adventures. We are currently fighting the hardest case. I hate the ones where kids are victims. So, there are three dead girls, high schooler's. It's terrible. Anyway, we're thinking that the "bad guy" is the son of the local police chief, and that he is killing these girls because he leads a very terrible home life. There are more secrets in that home; I just know it.

JJ sends her very best; I hope to be able to see you soon.

All My Love,

Spencey.

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

May 25th, 2011

Mom,

So I am now officially dating Signe, and it is so fantastic. After this case is over, I plan to marry her, and I want your blessing. I know it seems fast; I am wondering if I am not losing my mind. But it's love, I know, and I've thought about it and I've discussed it with JJ, who you know is my closest confidant.

The case is stretching out; I am now undercover as a high school student. It's better the second time around, and you would be proud-all A's. I was even invited to try out for basketball.

Things are well at work, and I will send your well wishes to JJ and Henry and the others.

Always,

Spencey

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

27 May 2011

Mom,

I have wonderful news. Signe and I are expecting a child. Please don't freak out; I am proposing marriage tonight, and we are both excited.

I have yet to tell William about the new things in my life; maybe when Sig and I visit, we can go to his office. We'll see. I think that Sig and I can plan a trip out in late July; her parents are coming in a few days and will stay through the Fourth.

As for the case, we caught the bad guys. It *was* the son, killing the girls, but also the father, the police chief, had an awful secret that he was having a romance with his daughter. It was difficult, but Signe did brilliantly, and we are home now, enjoying a few days off.

What do you think about naming the child after you if it is a girl? Signe and JJ think it's cute, but I want your permission.

Have a happy holiday, Mom.

All of my Love,

Spencey.

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

Mom,
Sig's parents arrived today. Her mother already hates me; though I am unsure as to why. After all, I *did* save her daughter's life-you would've been proud, Mom, I was like a knight of the round table. But her dad seems OK. Sig is growing more emotional as the pregnancy continues on, but I find that if I am just a little more patient than usual, I can get her to come around....does it ever ease up? The morning sickness seems to subside a little each week, for which I am grateful-seeing the woman I love so sick from something that I did to her makes my heart ache.

I'm worried that I am going to be a failure as a father-I know it makes you sad to hear it, I wasn't given the best father figure, and I wonder how well that bodes for my new little family. I want to give my child the very best, but I don't know if *I* am the best...I am still just Spencer, the nerdy, self-conscious genius that I always was.

Your last letter I read aloud to Sig, and it made her laugh. Watching her laugh is the best feeling in the world...I finally find myself enjoying the idea of marriage and family.

I will fill you in on the case stuff tomorrow; Signe is giving me the "let's go to bed" signal.

Love,

Spencey.

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

Mom-

A new adventure awaited us today. Yes, this time the whole team came along. There was a missing husband, and three more behind him. We thought the wives were involved, and then we discovered that they were old school friends, and had slept with the same man many years ago, and it was actually him that was killing the husbands...

You should have seen Sig, Mom, she was brilliant. And Derek-he made the collar. One day, I hope I can be as brave and strong as the rest of them...we learned the gender of the baby, but we're keeping it a secret until we come visit the weekend after next...which I actually have to clear with Signe. But we both have some vacation, and they may as well get used to Signe being gone...four more months and she can start looking at maternity leave, if she chooses.

The day to day living in a relationship is slowly becoming a little less scary...maybe I am adjusting more? Maybe it's Signe's influcence? Whatever it is, the others say I seem happier, more relaxed, even though I *feel* just as confused as before.

Hope your Fourth was special.

All My Love,

Spencey

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

Mom,
Two days and you will finally meet Signe and the baby. Signe and I went to the doctor again, and the baby is growing...she looks a little like an elf...I wonder if that signifies that she will born around Christmas?! Of course, Penelope and JJ are hoping like mad that that is exactly what happens, but I don't know...I am under the impression that these things run their own course.

Anyway, we've begun decorating the nursery...correction, we are discussing the plans for the nursery, but we *have* purchased some things. We are going back and forth on paint colors-I think that little DJ should have girly things, and Signe is of the impression that we should do neutrals, just in case. I didn't realize that making desicions about your child's future begins well before they make their appearance...

And it makes me all the more grateful for you.

All My Love,

Spencey

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

Mom,
We are here in lovely Las Vegas, and it's a nice day, for once. I am with Sig, and while she wants to do the sights, I, of course, could care less. I just want to see you. I am trying to decide how much to tell William when he calls; of course, I will tell him the "news," but I am still weary of how much involvement I want him to have in my life. I just want him to know that he now has a grandchild on the way, and he can do with that what he will. I have promised myself that I will not stand in his way if he chooses to have a relationship with the baby, but I don't wish to see him myself. Signe says I am being silly, but then, I haven't told her the fullest extent of the betrayal I feel.

Enough about the past. I want your opinion on the wedding-before or after the baby comes? I think a spring wedding would be awesome, but then, I want to make sure that DJ has a secure, loving home environment. Especially since I think there is something going on with Signe's parents...I can't quite put a finger on it, but it seems like there's an undercurrent of drama, and I know her father is keeping quiet because of the baby....

All My Love,

Spencey

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

Mom,

I know that we just saw you, but I have some news. Sig's parents are separating, and it is tearing her up. I fear this will be emotionally damaging; I almost want to spit, I am so annoyed. Sig and her dad are close, and so I think he is moving to DC full-time, but I just hope the stress of this doesn't hurt my Sig or the baby....can stress cause a miscarriage? It's probably too soon to think about that, but the nagging thoughts are there all the time, and I worry so desperately that somehow, it's all going to be taken away-Signe will wake up one morning and meet some guy who is better than me, or that something will happen to me....my God, becoming a parent is the most nerve-wracking thing I have ever done, which is something given that I am an FBI agent.

Seeing William was OK...I think we ended on a slightly up note compared to last time, and I know Signe is already planning to invite him to the wedding...

Keep me posted on Nurse Sarah's ideas about what to read to DJ...Sig think that Asmiov is "too advanced."

Love always,

Spencey

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

Mom,

Today we are arriving in Grayson, Ky. Two girls have been found dead so far, both strangled and showing signs of necrophilia. Signe is coming along this time; we have agreed to wait until the case is over to tell Hotch about our romance, and about the baby.

We are about to head to a hotel, and it's going to be awkward-since Sig and I are still "in the shadows," we have to stay separated, and I don't know how it's going to feel, waking up and her not being there, kissing me good morning. Or me putting my arms around her quickly-growing belly, feeling the child that is hanging out in there....

I just hope we can all survivde this, and this case goes quickly.

All My Love,

Spencey