Spencer's Letters to the Baby

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

May 22nd

Dear Baby-
Today it was revealed to me that you will be joining my life. This news came in a very painful moment, and in a way that rocked my world. At first, I was hoping it was a bad dream; I was scared and nervous, feeling that I was ill-equipped, and that it was too sudden. I also feel that I was maybe a little harsh to your mother, and if you heard that, I apologize. But I was hurt and annoyed.
Anyway, it's a few hours later, and I am feeling better. I'm still scared, and nervous that I will be a terrible father, but I promise you this-Dad will always, always be in your life. I will marry your mother, and we'll make it work-together-as a family. And you will have so many people that love you; you are a lucky child.
I promise to give you a father-the only promise I can make right now. You will have what I did not-a man in your life who loves you more than anyone else.
Love,

Dad

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

Dear baby:

Yesterday I learned you were joining our lives, and I woke up this morning feeling joy. I was surprised; the fear is still there, but now I find myself excited. Your grandmother, Dad's mom, would call this an adventure, an epic story, and I guess that's so...your mother and I certainly had an unconventional courtship.

Mom and I are discussing the future, and I will let you know what we decide, but do know that we are thinking of you first and formost. I can't wait to find out what gender you are, just so I don't have to keep calling you "baby."

All my Love,

Dad

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

Dear Baby:

So many thing I want to tell you, but today, I want to tell you about Mom and Dad's job. We're FBI agents, and it makes me worried, a little, for your mama. I feel that, as her boyfriend, it's my job to keep her (and now you, too) as safe as possible, but I know that if I suggest that Mom take a break from arresting bad guys and throwing perps against a wall, she would kill me, and you're making her very horomonal and scary right now. Do you think maybe you could put in a good word for Dad; tell Mom that I love her and just want her to be safe? I'd appreciate it, kid.

Your mom's parents are coming in a few days, so I want you to be good and not make Mommy feel too sick, ok, because she tells me that they stress her out. Your uncle Derek is here now, so Dad is going to leave to go with him.

All my love,

Daddy.

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

Dear Baby,

Tomorrow is the day that Mommys' parents will come, and daddy is nervous. But other than that, I wanted to review with you some things: one, it's not nice to make Mommy sick, particularly at work. Two, if you don't like a food that Mommy and Daddy eat, you can just say so, and not make Mommy vomit on daddy.

PS-do you like the music that Daddy is playing at Mommy's stomach? It will make you smart...

Love

Dad

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

Dear Baby:
Hello, hello. I am planning a new tradition for Mom and I today, and I need your help. I want to start tracing Mom's belly to get the growth outline, so I need you to start growing, OK?! Some changes are happening in Mommy's life, too, so she'll need you more than ever.
I love you, baby, and today, I will finally get to see you...

Love,

Dad

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

Dear Baby:

Mommy and I went to the doctor today, and we saw you. I think you look a little like an Ewok, but Mommy says you're adorable. I bet she wouldn't appreciate it if I showed her what you *really* look like in one of my books....

But we decided that, if you turn out to be a little girl, we're going to call you Diana Jennifer. Diana is my mother, and the only person besides your mother, that I would die for if I had to. Jennifer is for Mom and Dad's friend JJ, who was instrumental in Mom and Dad getting together in the first place. All of your "aunts and uncles" on the Team are so excited to meet you, and we're thinking of asking two special people-Emily and Hotch-to be your godparents. Of all the people on the team, we think they'd be the best at the job. Of course, Derek will be like your uncle already anyway, and Garcia is so excited that I think she might explode.

Now, on the more practical side of things, Mommy and Daddy are going to take some time after work this week to go to the hardware store and start the nursery....do you prefer pink and girly, or neutral and tough?

Love,

Daddy

Pretty soon, Daddy is taking Mommy to see where he grew up, and meet your grandmother Diana.

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

Dear daughter,

Three months ago, my life changed forever with the news of your arrival. But now I find that every decision I make, every thought I have, every dollar I spend, it is all for you and your mother. I find myself being that much more careful in my words and actions, knowing that you can hear what is going on out here. I think we shall start reading 20,000 Leagues under the Sea, just so you can relate...with what's going in there, you should be looking pretty much like a sea monkey right now. But I like sea monkeys; they're kind of cute. As expected, Mommy was NOT interested in Daddy's medical version of her pregnancy...but I think that as she reads "What to Expect," which, according to JJ, is *the* book on pregnancy, she will come around.

I have so many plans for us....so many adventures that I want to take with my girls....and I, for one, can't wait.

Today, Daddy is taking Mom to meet your grandmother Diana, your namesake. Coming here to where Daddy was born, and grew up, is a little difficult, but hopefully your mama and I can take it in stride. Please be good for Mommy, OK?

Love,

Daddy

[SSA Dr. Spencer Reid]

Dear Baby,

I am about to take Mom for dinner at the little resturant attached to the hotel...and I am deep in thought while she gets made up. It makes me smile; she's gorgeous to me, but I understand that she wants to look her best. Anyway, Daddy is a little sad now.

*MY* dad met us at at the hospital with Grandma. I was annoyed at first; I felt like it was an intrusion on our time with Grandma. Someday I will tell you the story of how and why I dislike my father; I used to say "hate" but I guess it's subsiding a little. I guess he wasn't *so* bad, I understand that my mother was terrible ill, and was unwilling to take her medications that would help her. I understand that he did what he thought he had to to save himself, and I didn't realize it at the time, though I suppose I should have, that he really was there, in the background, making sure I had a place to live, food to eat, and clothes. I didn't realize that that was his way of taking care of his family, even though he couldn't be there in the flesh and blood.

So I hope that you and your Grandpa Bill can be good friends, and here's hoping he's a better grandparent than he was father.

I have to go; your mother just emerged from the bathroom looking gorgeous.

All My Love,

Daddy